When the Father Steps on the scene....

So my oldest son plays baseball and his father coaches the baseball team that He plays for (such a lucky kid☺️) and last night they had a very important game. Unfortunately I wasn't able to make it but before Isaiah left the house I reminded him that he was going to do well and that I would be there in spirit. Around 10pm I said to myself, wait this is late why aren't they home so I called Lamont to see where they were. He informed me that they lost the game but as the coach he was ok. I sat on the bed & prepared myself for Zay because I know he's coming into his own & has developed his father's competitiveness when it comes to sports and will be very disappointed. He came up the stairs and I heard the despair in his footsteps. He walked by my room and I said "come here son". He looked at me with sad eyes & said "mommy we lost and I don't want to really talk."  I called him in the room anyway. He came in, I looked him in his eyes and said "you will always be a Champion and to me you have won." He tried to smile but a small tear fell down his face. I let him go to his room. He showered and got ready for bed. He tossed and turned for a good 20 mins, I heard him in there wrestling to go to sleep. At that moment I was in the bathroom, I heard Lamont walk down the hallway to his room and started talking. like a creep I peeped out the door to listen lol. I heard him say "you played a good game son! You played a really good game. That makes you a winner! Don't be upset or get fretful you are now a better player than you were last season & that makes you a winner!!" Isaiah reached out and touched his father's hand with his head, I guess as a way of saying thank you and then he laid down. He fell asleep within minutes. You know why??? Because The Father stepped in on the scene.  

You have to think about every situation you are toiling with, every obstacle the devil has put in your way, every trial you have been facing......it will change INSTANTANEOUSLY when The Father steps in on the scene. It's in those moments, those midnight hours when we can no longer deal with what we are going through. It's those moments that the FINAL AUTHORITY will show up and show up and every demonic force in your life must flee. Fathers be attentive to your children as your Heavenly Father is attentive to you! #ItsSomethingAboutTheFather #WhenHeShowsUp #HeShowsOut #iLoveDemBoys #DemRadcliffBoys #FatherYourSons

Public Enemy #1

Greetings in the name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ! Today I have something to share: 

I tried to look up the words "Public Enemy" as a phrase and it's not necessarily found in the dictionary written that way, you're better off looking it up separately. However, I came across the phrase as I was googling a definition and somewhere it said " someone or something that many people do not like or approve of."  

I thought wow! Ok God! I see why this post had to be titled Public Enemy #1. 

See, a few days ago I was placed in a situation where someone blatantly lied on me and it brought sheer chaos to my life. I mean the lack of sleep, migraine headache, racing thoughts type of chaos. It bothered me so much that I was brought to tears by it. I questioned myself and everything around me as to how this one person could say one thing (the lie) and bring about so much turmoil and destruction. It saddened me because of course it hurts being lied on but it hurts even more when your character is attacked and all you can really do is sit back and wait for God to rectify the situation. 

Hear me out, I KNOW THAT I KNOW THAT I KNOW THAT GOD IS GOING TO RECTIFY THIS because He said to "touch not my anointed and do my prophet no harm" but He also told me that vengennce was His and not mine so I really have to sit back and wait if I want to do it the right way. I learned a valuable lesson because if this was some years ago, well even some months ago I wouldn't have done that. I'm learning now to trust God more than I ever had. 

The greatest lesson that I did learn was that this was a spiritual attack. Anything that brings about chaos and confusion is of the enemy and I am a threat to him. I am public enemy #1 in his eyes because every time I profess Christ, every time I seek God or win a soul I bring damage to his kingdom. So guess what? He doesn't approve of my life style as a Christian  nor does he like me and will do anything to change that. 

Know that if you have made a conscious decision to live for Christ, no matter how many times you have fallen, how many mistakes you have made, no matter how many times you may have "thought" you were defeated, you made a choice to live for him and you have now become a target. 

See the assignment was sent to destroy me because he tried to destroy my reputation by giving me a bad name amongst men BUT God has already called me 'CHOSEN/BLESSED/FAVORED/LOVED/ROYAL/BEAUTIFUL/His Daughter/HEIR TO THE THRONE..........those are my God given titles and No man on earth can change that. They persecuted Jesus and called him all types of fakes and phonies but He only answered to the name His father gave him which was "Son of God." 

You may be battling something right now and it seems like all hell is breaking loose in your life but I dare you to stop right where you are, take a deep breath and speak to who you really are. You Public Enemy to the kingdom of darkness BUT you are CHOSEN to the Kingdom of Christ! 

Walk in your God given right and NEVER give up the good fight of faith. Christ died so that you might live and declare the works of the Lord. 

I refuse to bow to this situation because I know that soon enough my enemies will be my footstools. Be encouraged and know that even now He is working it out on your behalf.  

This is a true story........

Makeup 101

So I told myself that I would be blogging more this year and building my brand and what have I been doing? The complete opposite...........BUT......today is a start and this topic has been on my mind for the last few weeks so I decided to blog about it. 

I've been wearing make up now for a few years and every year I like it more lol! It started a few years after my first born and then the love for it grew more after I had my second son. My very first foundation was Mac's NW 45 studio fix powder. Looking back I probably looked like a vampire because I'm sure I had no clue as to what I was doing and I know even more now that I didn't need that much coverage because your girl had skin like a new born 😼. 

Anyway as the years grew I've gotten better. I now know what works with my skin: colors, coverage, liquid vs powder, etc.  I'm not very big on eye shadow and mascara but I love blushes and lipsticks. I'll actually blog more about that at a later date.  Since I loveeeeeee this thing called fashion, contrary to popular belief, one should know make up application as well as materials and their textures. They all play a part in a person's overall look. 

I've noticed so many women wearing make up now and proud to wear it and it makes me all "butterfly-ie" inside because I love when women embrace what they love and own it!! *round of applause*

NOW WITH THAT SAID, some of you need a few pointers and though I am NOT a make up artist or an expert there are certain basics that we all should know so im just passing on the knowledge. 

Makeup 101: 

1. If you use a make up brush for your foundation, eye shadow, blush, etc it is IMPERATIVE that you wash it every few days. Honestly my sister is a make up artist and she makes me wash my brushes DAILY. You would be surprised at the amount of bacteria that builds up in those brushes and if you keep applying your make up not only are you causing damage to your skin but you are also contaminating your foundation. If you notice little breaks or small dots (like holes) in your powder foundation chances are bacteria got into so wash those brushes ladies. 

2. When choosing your foundation if you can't go to a make up counter test in some good light. Go in the hallway of where you live, your friends house etc. the light in your bathroom is not as honest as we want to think. It lies sometimes lol. If after applying your foundation, your face does not Blend in with your neck it's not the right match. 

3.  Unfortunately soap and water does not take all your make up off so invest in good make up remover wipes or the make up remover solution. I use to use the really expensive make up brand wipes (MAC, Chanel etc) but honestly no wipe had done me more justice than Neutrogena make up remover wipes. 

They really work! They get everything off. I just recently purchased Sephora's make up remover wipes and they are pretty good too so I recommend those as well. 

Once you have removed your make up then you should wash your face and moisturize it to replenish whatever was lost with the make up removal. 

4. Makeup means NOTHING without good skin care ladies so take care of your skin. Your make up should enhance your look not make up to make you look too made up. If you have troubled skin take care of that first. Any good make up artist should tell you that. Vitamin C does WONDERS to the skin. It rejuvenates, revives and brings back your youthful look so find a serum or even a moisturizer that has vitamin c in it and apply it daily. Drink water to eliminate acne and build up. I know I hate water but as I'm getting older im realizing how important it is for LIFE in general. It really helps your skin. Find a good face wash for your skin type. If you have dry skin you should have a moisturizing wash like Cetaphil. Seek a dermatologist if need be but take care of your skin. Oh and MOISTURIZE MOISTURIZE MOISTURIZE!!!! We all need to do it! If you are using make up to cover up bad skin it will only make it worse ladies so take care of your God given gift! :) 

5. Last but not least, Learn what really works for you. I hate to see women do the most. First find an everyday look. Yellow lips are not appropriate for ANY work environment.  I don't care if you work in a circus. Especially if you are over a certain age. Older women that dress up like clowns every day annoy me. If you are wearing a loud lip then the rest of your make up should be neutral. If you are wearing a neutral lip then you can wear bright shadows etc. 

An every day look should be appropriate for the office,school, the supermarket or the flea market. It's bad enough that we get a bad rep for even liking make up but keep it classy ladies. Neutral with little to no colors for the day and jazz it up with colors for the nights or when you are Going out. You can do it! 

I'll do a follow up blog with products and things of that nature in the near future.  Hopefully this was helpful to someone. :) 

Underneath the dirt....

So as most of you know, I have three children, three boy children: 9,5, and 1 years old and to say they are all very different is, well an understatement. They are active, playful, loving, caring, sweet, inquisitive..........and gosh, they are all soooo cute (I know I know all moms feel that way but they really are😊).  

So if you are a parent of a boy child or have had brothers I'm sure you know they can get messy at times (not that girls don't but little boys enjoy dirt! Yikes). We are constantly cleaning up behind them and last night I think I had my breaking point. 

I ordered the two older ones to put every last toy in their toy box and pick up all the papers that they just had laying around. I went to get the extra dirt they left behind and for some strange reason I grabbed the broom instead of the vacuum and I began to sweep up dirt off their carpet.  Of course I had to work harder because sweeping is much more work than vacuuming but I did it. I used the little thing to pick up the dirt (forgot the name) and as I was sweeping the dirt into it, thinking to myself how annoying this was, I heard God say to me "This is what I do! I clean off the dirt from my people, no matter how much or hard it is so that the world can see the real them". 

I looked at the carpet and it almost looked new, the tiny specks of dirt that was left over was because the broom couldn't get into the very small parts, the vacuum would have been able to and I think that's how God works for us. 

When we give our lives to Him, He CLEANS US UP.  He vacuums our sins off of us and throws into in the sea of forgetfulness the same way a regular vacuum bag is thrown away when it has been used. I just sat there, speechless, marveling in what He said to me and feeling completely blessed all at the same time. 

There is a promise in the Bible that I LIVE by and recently I've been praying it more. In Psalms 23, David said "Surely goodness and mercy will follow me ALL the days of my life......" And that serves as a constant reminder that throughout the pain, the mistakes, the sins, throughout all of that, He still cleans us up and not only makes us presentable but He makes us representatives of Him on this earth. 

Underneath all the dirt lies children of the living God and if you are yet still to be cleaned I ask that today you go to Him, His vacuum has your name on it and He's more than ready to clean you up and make you His representative. 

This is a true story 

"If you love me.....say it"

I always wonder about the way a person dies and does it have any equivalence to the way we live. The sudden and unprepared passing of a person can leave such a damper on your heart that you may begin to question, Where did I go wrong? 

As I read the brief story and description of her death: leaving her son's soccer game to come home and make dinner, accidentally falls in the kitchen and cuts her neck and then bleed to death makes my heart ache, literally, for her husband who found her and her son who will have to live without her. 

Things like this will always remain a constant reminder as to one of her most famous songs, as life is really as a vapor as the word of God so eloquently puts it. So since tomorrow is really not promised and our next moment together is unsure, all I ask is, "If you love me, say it"

RIP Maxwell of Brownstone and may the peace of God encompass your husband, son and family during this unexpected passing of your life. 

The ability to Love without flaw

It's 12:21 pm and I'm having a convo via text message with my sister Deann. We're reminiscing on my children and how God has blessed me with three exceptionally beautiful, yes I know they are boys but beautiful boys. I'm sending her pictures of my second born, prince Noah and I came across a collage of all three of them and I looked at it and began to start which was immediately followed by tears, real LIVE tears, as I looked at each of them at this stage in their life and I am in awe at what the Creator my God has done. 

You see, my life has been no bed of roses and though there have been times that I question God like how could you give me three children, I look at them now and all I could see is God's love for us, HIS children. It takes a certain heart to love and love differnt ppl at once, without flaw or question or bias or any of that. It takes a heart that desires love to love without question and that's what He gave me. No matter where you are now in life you have to know, HEAR ME SAY THAT, you have to know that no matter where you are God still love you and He's never stopped. He's waiting for you to see that just like a mother and a child no Matter what you do in life the love doesn't cHange, so is His love for you.  

So to my son's: Isaiah, Noah and Liam........... No matter where you are in life and no matter where you go, the love that I feel for you can never ever be tainted. You have made me a better woman, a better friend, a better wife, a better mother. You're life is a sheer reflection of God's love for me. You are three strong men, brilliant, integral, men of valor and strength. You are men of your word, steadfast and unmovable in God. You love with your whole heart. Tou are intelligent and wise and favored amongst many. You lead and not follow. You are kind and not judgmental. You are effortless in your ability to speak and you a leader amongst your peers. You gave me the one that no one could take away from me and that is the ability to love you without flaw. I love you with my whole heart

Mom

This is a True Story 

My Open Letter to Bobbi Khristina Brown

Baby girl, 

It's with the heaviest of hearts that I write this letter to you because somewhere within me, I felt that if I was on my post and doing my own part that the position you are in could have been prevented. 

You (or they) may say, what do you mean? You don't even know her......and they are very much right to say that, I don't know you, our paths have never crossed and our lives have never been introduced but somewhere in me I've felt some of your pain, I've experienced the oppressive depression and I've hid behind my smile and concealed all my hurt and all the pain. I can remember days of crying my eyes out and laying in my bed being tortured by the pain caused by some one else. Not knowing what my tomorrow would hold. I know the feeling of "she got it all together" and in some aspect I did but not "all" just some........some of me was together and some of me wasn't. And that's the complication of dealing with issues of the heart because some of it sounds like jargon and some of it sounds like pain. Some of it sounds like anguish and some of it sounds like gain. Some of it somewhat sounds beautiful and then some it *pauses for a second* 

Some of it just sounds loud and angry and confusing....and.......well you get me. 

Even if what you are dealing with has nothing to do with being depressed, or missing your mom like the media states. Even if you are dealing with something totally different, sis, I've been there too. I've been young and confused or thought that  I knew what I wanted. I've been young and focused and have gotten all that I needed. I'm still young and still striving because, well, it's life and we just go through what we go through so that's why first I apologize. I apologize because God called me to be an Intercessor, to seek Him out for those that need prayer and stand in the gap for them and for some reason, I miss it, I've missed others and everytime I read your story I feel like I've missed you. See, I am armed with weapons of mass destruction, mass destruction in the spirit to tear down strong holds and break yokes and remove burdens..........but again.......somehow I missed you. So I repented........and I stand in the gap for you right now declaring healing and WHOLENESS over you right now in the name of Jesus. I command your body to align itself to the word of God and function in the capacity in which God designed it to function. I speak peace to your mind and to the minds of your family and declare that the will of God for your life will be done. In Jesus name Amen. 

Now I know, you are resting so I've asked God to visit you in that state and if you don't know Him to give you the opportunity to know Him because I know that He can bring you back from where you are. He brought Lazarus back from death and guess what else? He brought me back from the same death so I know what I ask of Him is possible. 

So again, I know you are resting, take your time in that but know that there is someone out here that's not judging you or does not see you as "just a celebrity." Know that there is someone out here rooting for you and praying for your soul because this someone knows that if God himself desires that you be in good health and prosper even as your soul prospers then that someone desires the same thing for you and that someone baby girl, that someone is Me! 

*deep sigh*

I know that you are resting right now and I've asked God to visit You, receive Him when He comes. 

Rest easy baby girl. I'm rooting for you. 

Love, 

Akilah 

This is A True Story.