The Great "I Am"

The Unprecedented Act of Love.....

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.  - 1Corinthians 13

Whenever I think about 'Love' it always brings me to the Biblical explanation of Love. God speaks so purely of it and what it does and does not do. It ultimately seems flawless because it keeps no record of wrong doing and holds no grudges. That in itself goes against human nature because we are selfish creatures who places "I" before just about everything. However, thousands of years ago, the greatest act of love was displayed for the whole to see and to me it is the greatest love story ever told......"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." - John 3:16. God loved this world so much, with all it's flaws, disappointments and anguish that it caused Him, He still loved us so much that He made the ultimate sacrifice and gave His only son so that you and I might one day live.  What pain it must have caused Him to watch them torture the child that He created, that He fearfully and wonderfully made. Imagine your only child given up as a sacrifice so that someone else could live? 

That's the Unprecedented Act of Love, (Unprecedented - without previous instance; never before known or experienced; unexampled or unparalleled), it's something that is always new and like the definition says, never before experienced or known. 

Love is just that, it starts a anew everything. It erased, it we eradicates, it advocates, it renews and revives, it resurrect, it builds, it uplifts and upholds. None of what I just said was apart of the Biblical definition but it was still apart of love. Where there is love you cannot fail. I think of my love for my children and how twice in my life I faced death to give birth to them, yes twice. So that means that after the first time I actually went back and had another child who I suffered so badly after birth that I had a stroke that was designed to kill me. The doctors were in amazement that I lived through it but what they didn't know that what I experienced in that ICU was God's "Unprecedented Act of Love" for me. 

God wants to love you, He wants to show you how His love for you will change the very course of your destiny, it will catapult you from one realm of your life to the next. Where there is love, you can find Him and if you seek Him today, He will be there, waiting, just for you!!! 

                    This is a True Story......

The Protection of the 91st Psalm

He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. 2 I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust. 3 Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.  4 He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler. - Psalm 91: 1-4

I confess the 91st Psalms over my children as well as my husband and household daily, yes there are days when I forget but I try my hardest too because I understand the importance of keeping us protected and allowing God to do just that by confessing His word. 

These words could not be any more "truer" to me today as well it cannot be any more evident how faithful God is to His word because in the middle of the night my entire family could have been erased, my building could have blown up and this message would have never reached you.  Yesterday I walked out to the front of my building and was greeted by a Con Edison team working on something in front of the building. I noticed they were lifting up the gas gadget thing on the sidewalk but I didn't say anything because I figured my landlord (though a jerk) would definitely warn us if our lives were in danger. Later on that afternoon I was trying to cook and noticed that my stove would not light up. Shortly after the team of ConEdison workers knocked on our door to let us know that the gas would not be on for the rest of the night until they fixed the "leak."  Again, my landlord never called or warned any of us so when I  woke up this morning there was still no gas.  I ran into my neighbor who told me that someone reported the gas leak and basically what would have happened to us is the same thing that happened to the building on Park Ave in Harlem (http://mobile.nytimes.com/2014/03/13/nyregion/east-harlem-building-collapse.html?referrer=).  I almost choked on the air that I was breathing because all this time there was something happening that my landlord knew about and still never told us. We could have all died with no knowledge of what was really happening. 

But God............He is so very different. He stays true to who He is an weh He says that He will never leave us not forsake us, HE MEANS IT!!!!! The angels of God were on assignment over my household. They never left their post, they stood their ground and fulfilled what was required. When I plead the blood over my children and my husband, it went to work because wherever you apply the Blood of Jesus, HE MUST MANIFEST HIMSELF. How much greater can He be for us to recognize that He is truly ALL that we need? What greater love is there than this that He would stand for us even when we cannot stand for ourselves? 

I'm so very grateful today because this message could have died inside of me but God saw it fit that I still live to spread His word and it is very true that He kept me in His secret place. 

The bane of my existence...........

In November of 2013, I became a new mom again, for the third time.  To some people that may sound a lot while to some, it sounds like the perfect family; however, to myself.......it sounds like the process of God's will for my life working itself out.

With a new baby comes all the glorious things like changing loads of pampers, feeding as well as washing the bottles that you feed the baby with.  I found myself saying the other day, "washing and sterilizing baby bottles have become the bane of my existence."  I chuckled to myself once I said it and thought about how many times a day I wash and sterilize bottles.  I make sure that whatever goes into my son's mouth must be clean, fresh and lack impurity.  No matter how many children I have I will never get use to them getting "dirty" nor will I ever be able to stomach them likening their food dropping to the floor with the 4 second rule (or however many seconds it is).   I cannot protect them from everything but I can do the best that I can and try to.  It is just something that we do............it is something that mothers do and some I even think enjoy doing.  We are maternal and we nurture and that just comes with the territory.

I thought about how the new "bane of my existence" reminded me of my relationship with God and how everything He did for me was just like I would do for my children.  He did these things because I too was His child and He wanted to protect me, offer me great things to benefit my life, love me, guide me, bless and make sure that I was on the right path.  I thought about how much He loved me that He gave His only son to die so that I could live! How amazing is this God of mine that He would do all these things for me, EVENTHOUGH, I am not worth of them all.  I sat back and I smiled because the new 'bane of my existence' could not compare to that of God's but I realized that the true bane of my existence is what I have in Christ and the relationship that we shared.

So continued to wash Liam's bottles and this time I took more pride in what I was doing because there was a greater one out there who did more than I could ever do and does it all because He loves me.




                                                                                          This is a true story...........

Take me to the King....

He died so I might live...... I cannot ever repay Him but I can live a life of Thanksgiving and honor to Him! 

Every Mom needs a stylish comfort shoe....

I'm not a sneaker gal but every now and again I have to kick off my heels and get down. I refuse to do that without still being stylish. 

So here I am under the dryer, dawned in Isabel Marants and distressed #7forAllMankindDenim 

And lately I think I like who I'm becoming....

There comes a time in life.....

There comes a time in life when you have to re-evaluate your life and think to yourself: Is it really necessary to have shopping apps on your phone? 😕🙇💭

The joys of a working mom

I absolutely love being home with my son but trying to make changes in my life (I.e finally starting my blog, changing careers, etc) proves very challenging at times. Typing with a sleeping baby in your arms is no joke, it's real levels to this parenting thing lol! 

But then I look at him and think........without him, without them.....what would my story even hold? 

Seasons

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

 A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

 A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

 A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing. - 

Ecclesiastes 3: 1-5

I was sitting here thinking about Seasons and what it meant, how things have changed so drastically in my life in just a period of one year.  The first thing that came to mind was what the Bible said about Seasons and how there is a time for EVERYTHING under the sun and everything comes full circle.  I thought about my highs and then my lows and realized that the low is ofetn a prerequisite for the high.  It prepares you for what is to come, that next level, so that when you get there you are fully prepared (in most cases) to tackle what lies ahead.  

One of the lowest points in my life was watching my first born fight for his life for the first three months of his life in a Neonatal ICU (or NICU).  I gave birth to what looked like skin and bones.  We couldn't hold him for weeks because preemies are so sensitive that even the very touch could trigger something detrimental for them.  So I sat next to his incubator every day, I prayed, I cried, i wondered what he would be like if he was to grow up.  I wondered about the sound of his voice, the pitter patter of his little feet, the smell of breath, his touch, his kiss...........I wondered about all the things that I've seen all the new moms that I knew experienced but me.  I prepared myself for the worse because the doctors paint a very clear picture to you of all the things that will take place in your child's life because of the time that he was born (or now should i say, the season in which he was born).   I started thinking about therapy and delays, I thought about how he would develop socially, how his emotions would be affected by this prematurity and of course you know with that, I also started to blame myself.  For those three months, life stood still for me and this is coming from the same person who believed in the very God who could make all things possible.  In my heart I knew that but my flesh would not allow me to see pass what was in front of me.  So I built my faith up, I prayed more and I know that there people praying for him as well.  

Then one day I woke up, from what felt like a very long dream and there he was: He was walking, he was talking, he hugged me, he kissed me and he said "Mommy" way more than I expected.  This man child that I had given birth to, this man child that I had prayed for, God's gift to me, I woke up one day and there he was: Healed, restored, delivered and set free from the bondage of sin and death.   It was then that I was awakened to the "Seasons" that would take place in my life because 'To everything, there is a Season"

The Art of Masking

Your heart.....

"Above all else, guard your heart because out of it flows the issues of life" - Proverbs 4:23 

I never knew the depth of what lies in the heart, the mechanical organ that sends blood around the entire body. What would be do if it no longer pumped the blood that we need? What would we do if it decided one day to no longer function in the capacity in which it was designed to function? God has to intricately designed our bodies that every organ, vein, blood vessel and capillary all work with other and when one stops it affects the other and ultimately affects the rest of the body. 

Kinda of why I think He warned us through His word, to guard this special organ, this organ if not treated with care can affect our lives. Our emotional stage is wrapped up in our heart and when our emotions (mood, temperament, disposition and the physical part of it is our nervous system) when we throw that off balance we throw our lives off balance. The very issue that eats at you and stops you from thinking, breathing and even at times living that's the very issue that flows from the heart, the same issue that affects our emotions (nervous system) and eventually consumes us. That's what God speaks of, that thing that you have no control over He tells us to guard our hearts from and just like the gentleman He is, He knows that some of us, like myself, are thinkers, so He leaves us with another instruction.... "cast all your cares on Him, for He cares for you" - 1Peter 5:7

I don't know what your heart has been through but mine have been dragged through the trash and stomped on and just when I thought I could not take it anymore, I picked up my pen (well laptop) and I write and as I write I could hear Him, my Savior, calling me, from the depths of my pain into the warmth of His hold. 

Won't you let Him comfort you?? 

My Introduction To Blogging

Testing............Testing..............testing........1,2,3..........................

This is a test to see how bad I want this and how far I will take this.  

These post are a true testament of my life......