Baby girl,
It's with the heaviest of hearts that I write this letter to you because somewhere within me, I felt that if I was on my post and doing my own part that the position you are in could have been prevented.
You (or they) may say, what do you mean? You don't even know her......and they are very much right to say that, I don't know you, our paths have never crossed and our lives have never been introduced but somewhere in me I've felt some of your pain, I've experienced the oppressive depression and I've hid behind my smile and concealed all my hurt and all the pain. I can remember days of crying my eyes out and laying in my bed being tortured by the pain caused by some one else. Not knowing what my tomorrow would hold. I know the feeling of "she got it all together" and in some aspect I did but not "all" just some........some of me was together and some of me wasn't. And that's the complication of dealing with issues of the heart because some of it sounds like jargon and some of it sounds like pain. Some of it sounds like anguish and some of it sounds like gain. Some of it somewhat sounds beautiful and then some it *pauses for a second*
Some of it just sounds loud and angry and confusing....and.......well you get me.
Even if what you are dealing with has nothing to do with being depressed, or missing your mom like the media states. Even if you are dealing with something totally different, sis, I've been there too. I've been young and confused or thought that I knew what I wanted. I've been young and focused and have gotten all that I needed. I'm still young and still striving because, well, it's life and we just go through what we go through so that's why first I apologize. I apologize because God called me to be an Intercessor, to seek Him out for those that need prayer and stand in the gap for them and for some reason, I miss it, I've missed others and everytime I read your story I feel like I've missed you. See, I am armed with weapons of mass destruction, mass destruction in the spirit to tear down strong holds and break yokes and remove burdens..........but again.......somehow I missed you. So I repented........and I stand in the gap for you right now declaring healing and WHOLENESS over you right now in the name of Jesus. I command your body to align itself to the word of God and function in the capacity in which God designed it to function. I speak peace to your mind and to the minds of your family and declare that the will of God for your life will be done. In Jesus name Amen.
Now I know, you are resting so I've asked God to visit you in that state and if you don't know Him to give you the opportunity to know Him because I know that He can bring you back from where you are. He brought Lazarus back from death and guess what else? He brought me back from the same death so I know what I ask of Him is possible.
So again, I know you are resting, take your time in that but know that there is someone out here that's not judging you or does not see you as "just a celebrity." Know that there is someone out here rooting for you and praying for your soul because this someone knows that if God himself desires that you be in good health and prosper even as your soul prospers then that someone desires the same thing for you and that someone baby girl, that someone is Me!
*deep sigh*
I know that you are resting right now and I've asked God to visit You, receive Him when He comes.
Rest easy baby girl. I'm rooting for you.
Love,
Akilah
This is A True Story.
